fruits of the post prelim weekend!

Friday - bummed at home.
Saturday - Zoo AND Night Safari, no night safari pics tho.
Sunday - crazy random outing with Mimi to all places random ON FOOT! Heh.

We'll let the pictures do the talking. First up... Our zoo trip!


Aresha's inner chinese shows.


Two bored parrots.


A very annoyed saki monkey.


Mr Ashwin with his 100plus looking all cool. His joy was contagious.. In the beginning la.


AMIT! The 6-foot 'fuzzy ogre' that's been living with us for the past week.


White tigers are the prettiest!


Psuedo Ronald McDonald shoes.


A reminiscing kangaroo.


The one on the right has boobs! No wait... 2nd from right. Haha.


Whoops this one has a border.


Aresha and Ash having a moment while taking a photo with the Seletar Reservoir backdrop.


Really stiff (rein)deer.


Aresha started jingling her keys to get their attention and I thought she was reminding them of Christmas.


Remember the happy monkey from the tree tops walk? This is another happy monkey.


"Can I have some?"


4 monkeys taking a photo with 5 monkeys.


A really sad looking sheep.


Little Japanese kiddos.


This leopard wouldn't stop pacing back and forth, so I gave up. But the effect is pretty cool.

Next is my little outing with Mimi earlier... Was mad fun. We met at City Hall, window shopped a lil at Raffles City, walked to the esplanade, had Max Brenner's, walked to Boat Quay, then Clarke Quay, then Fort Canning, then finally calling it a day. I think we might've shed a few kgs in the process. Heh.



A really sad looking wayang.. person.


Chocolate by the Bald Man.... It was absolutely LOVELY! Finally I had some. And it was totally worth it. Will be going back again very soon.


Mi and me outside the Esplanade.. Damn I have a scar on my nose! Heh.


Do you know what it says? Cause I sure as hell don't.


Some interesting tai chi type exercise was going on below the bridge.


How peaceful. But he looks like he's gonna HADOKEN someone. Just imagine.


I love the symmetry in this. Somewhat.


This photo has no caption. Yeah.


Big bird and a small bird. That statue has an asshole. Till now it baffles me as to why.


Us at Clarke Quay.


Love the interesting wheelchair concept this place had. Can't remember what the place was called tho. Somewhere in Clarke Quay.


We stopped for some Turkish ice cream (and got ripped off). The little 'i'll-let-you-have-it-OR-I-might-take-your-ice-cream-and-smack-some-bells' routine is pretty funny.


Trooping our way up to Fort Canning, we just had to take advantage of the sunset.


I dunno why but this reminds me of the Shire.


Tombstonessss....


Mimi jumping for joy that we're finally done.

And soooo that is the end. Also the end of me ever using the school's D70s. Ah well. Tomorrow it's back to school, back to the mugging, back to having no life.

Oh, and it's 5 weeks to the A's. Wish me luck.

am i funny?

I can't read my archives without laughing. But somehow I don't think the rest of the world can relate to my stupid sense of humour.

Anyways, my reader base, YES ALL FIVE OF YOU are very much appreciated and have special places in my heart.

Will be getting the D70s today from school and i'll take a break this weekend to go around taking photos. Just this weekend.

So if you want to catch me, this weekend is IT. Tuition night is still on Friday, Saturday night will be at the Night Safari. I'm hoping to go out and get some good shots over the next three days.

I have a bio paper in 3 and a half hours. The last god forsaken prelim paper i'll sit for. Am now filling out the Girton College and Overseas Applicant Interview forms.

Urgh. So leceh.

oh sh-

I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN. They nicely printed the page, circled it (in red fucking ink no less), folded it in three and air mailed it to me. I took extra precautions to ensure my email address was perfectly spelt, in perfect handwriting, to make sure nobody could get it wrong.

Grr. K so anyway they haven't said anything concrete about an interview, but from the looks of it I will be likely to have one at the END OF OCTOBER. I thought it'd be in December! On top of that, I have two more forms to fill out. Sheesh.

Can I just die now? Everything's happening so fucking fast i'm getting deeply irritated.

kanye you know i got your BACK!

The 50 Cent - Kanye West psuedo-feud-but-more-of-a-publicity-stunt is damn annoying. Cause its 50 Cent. How Kanye stoop to such a level! Gosh.

Kanye's outselling 50 at the moment :D

I haven't cut my fingernails since June. I don't always keep long nails, but I just never got around to cutting them. They're about 0.7mm long now, yeah I actually measured when I got bored studying.

Papers so far have been alright. I've had at least one paper everyday with the exception of 3 on Monday. Yes, three. After hearing all my friends in poly sitting for a handful of papers, I hope they don't get a heart attack. Heh. Oh and those papers have been no less than 2 hours each. Woo!

Will continue having papers everyday till next Thursday. Story of my life people.

I think getting As for the prelims are a bit far off, but I'm hoping for at least a B for at LEAST Chemistry, Bio or Math. Or all 3. I wish.

I've had the weirdest mental blocks during my papers. Chemistry Paper 3 on Monday had me ripping my hair out. I KNEW that there was only one answer to the question. And I just couldn't bloody accept it. I was adamant that its some unknown answer that I've never heard of but at the back of my mind I knew the damn answer but didn't wanna try getting it wrong.

Same thing happened today for Biology.

I haven't been sleeping much every night since Sunday. I usually don't freak out before a paper, and I was doing some major freaking out in my sleep (or lack thereof) about Chemistry. I'd wake up thinking about aluminium chloride for some fuck reason and organic chem reactions that just didn't make sense.

The following nights I tried to keep myself thinking about happy but sleep-inducing thoughts. It went better, I wouldn't wake up thinking about stuff but it'd take me at least an hour to get to sleep. Woke up stoned on Wednesday for Math.

And the period has impeccable timing. Right smack in the middle of exam week.

Grr. I feel so fucked. I hate this education system so much. But it's just another 2 months. All this, 18 years of my stupid life for a dumb piece of paper that'll dictate what i'll do in the future. I wonder if Cambridge has received my application. Haha.

Bebel Gilberto will be in Singapore 2nd October. Will prolly be going with Aresha cause nobody I know appreciates Brazilian chillout goodness. Koop was at Raffles Place last Saturday and I feel like punching myself in the head for not going cause it was FREE. If I didn't have exams... I'd have gone for Koop then trooped down to Homeclub for Goldie.

Sad story la.

"On October 2nd, you free, you let me know. When I pass I'll ride down in 6 to 7 minutes. If I don't reach your place by then means.... I'm dead."

Even sadder.

*BIGSIGH* Time to study.

le sigh.

If you stayed at home today doing nothing important in particular, please slap yourself.

I couldn't take my eyes off the sky, today was such a beautiful day. Though sadly in Singapore, it comes with humidity and heat, still, it was too good to stay in for.

But I did anyway. I took a break and brought Dog for a walk today for a bit, although she was being a pain. I've taken to bringing Dog out more than once in awhile so she'd quit her phobia of lorries. She's had it ever since some bitch of a maid of ours (one of the many) left the gate open the entire afternoon, only for Dog to run out and go missing. When she finally returned hours later, she was dirty all over and had a vicious abrasion on the side of her abdomen.

Bringing her for walks after that turned into her bringing ME for walks, cause she either wanted to turn around and go home, or drag me along to finish it as quickly as possible. This behaviour was amplified whenever a lorry went by, so I speculate she got pinned under a lorry or something when she went missing. :(

uh oh...

I just had a major KFC binge. I emerged from a couple of hours of Chemistry craving Zinger AND a Bandito for dinner. The guy on the phone was very patient with me while I took ten years to decide - 2 Zingers, 1 Bandito, 1 medium Popcorn Chicken.

Okayyy I didn't finish all of it, and I gave 1 Zinger to Maryjane (the maid, yeah don't you just love the name).

After my A's i'm gonna run the perimeter of Singapore.

I've sent in my Cambridge application form. Every passing day my tiny glimmer of faith in myself dwindles to a new low. I think it's cause my Civics Tutor predicted a B grade for my Chemistry. She's been on leave for the past 6 months, and refused to pick up my calls or reply to my online messages. If that B grade costs me my conditional offers to any of the 4 vet schools, I will be on a MURDEROUS RAMPAGE.

Fuck. Does she really think i'm that goddamn incapable? It's not even my worst subject - Econs, which got a predicted grade of B. B!

I don't see myself performing spectacularly for the prelims. Maybe scrape through a pass, but whatever la, it's the big A's that count.

First half of the week spent lazing around unnecessarily. It got to a point where i'd feel that same lethargy... from that post-O Level period. Waking up extremely late, despite the 9am alarm (which has been snooooozed so many times I think the side buttons of my V3x are spoilt), reading Harry Potter (oh noes), watching hours of cable then reading more Harry Potter, then finally, but reluctantly, settling in my chair before my poor underused study table.

Le sigh. How like that.

I don't know what to think. Like if I don't get into Vet school. It'd be as if everything in life has failed me, and i've failed myself. I want this so bad that I've had mock uni interviews going on in my head (and being mentally screwed by an uptight old British fogey in something that resembles a courtroom featured in True Files), working extra to help my Dad cover living costs, living life in Girton College in Cambridge (oh god please), enjoying the 5-6 years thoroughly despite the workload cause it's something I WANT TO DO and finally deciding to give up life in shitty Singapore to finally have some... quality of life there, for myself, my brother and sister. Oh, and get away from the fuckers that live here.

It sounds cheesy, but that's been the whole point so far. Heh, i've never put this into perspective in words.

Still, if I don't get it, life goes on.

The best thing about things like this is to expect the worst. So when the worst happens, you won't be as disappointed, and when it turns out ideally, well you know the rest.

Ah. Being in a JC sucks ass when you know what you want but can't do it the Poly way.

Less than 2 months to the A's. Less than a week to prelims.

When i'm not worrying about the two, i'm looking forward to Christmas, as I do every year. I always feel it months before December, I don't know why. By now you'd know Christmasses at 407 Upper Changi Road are the bomb. That Christmas smell. This year I wanna have a big dinner, before Christmas though, for my BAHLULS! They're ever so endearing, and the only group of people I adore so much cause they'd never pull some stupid stunt behind my back, fail to acknowledge me as a friend, or act like they're more atas than the people around them.

K I got that out of my system.

Anyways, the dinner, yes. I want to cook. I'll learn how to make Shepard's Pie and the like, and i'll do it a few times just to make sure it's edible when I cook for you guys. Ahahaha.

I really need a holiday. I've never hated Singapore more than I do now. No not cause it's boring, it's small, whatever. I hate the people.

The heartlanders, the matsminahsliansbengsanjacks, the angmohs being suckered into this shithole yet are the most privileged minority, and ESPECIALLY the manjens that act like they're the caucasians of the region.

Sheesh.

*warning. Aruna is gonna start ranting. I advise you to stop reading now.*

And what. In the hell. Is so great about being fair and having straight hair? Hey that rhymes.

I proudly had 'brown is beautiful' as my personal message on MSN the past week. Because, why does being brown deem me uglier than you?

Then there was this ad on TV that asked the question, 'Have you ever dreamed of having straight, beautiful hair?' or something along those lines. And is it just me, or do the before photos for most shampoo ads (for their before/after comparison) usually feature curly (albeit frizzy) hair? And the after photos always have that freshly rebonded, disgustingly straight fake-looking hair?

Screw you narrow-minded idiots.

The hairdresser I go to regularly always tells me i'm so fortunate to have natural curls. Every time she finishes she always styles my hair for the day, trying something new each time. She straightened it once, and said I look really nice, but the curls look better.

I went to my mom's hairdresser on one occasion, and encountered the total opposite. Some broken-english speaking tart of a middle aged lady told me off for not rebonding my hair, and said that curls are ugly unless its straight hair permed nicely (while she was sported artificial curls herself). I was so disgusted. If you had a perm, I can fucking tell. Most perm jobs i've seen suck ass. The curls look so... straggly and shapeless. Tho that's not the point.

I love my curly hair to bits. It's been looking great lately. A person I had familiar relations with once said I should never straighten my hair, only to change his mind later.

Funny how we're taken by an OD of brainwashing advertisements, how they make it seem so matter-of-fact. Cause that's what we're made to get used to, the norm in this shithole you see... so any deviation of the norm is wrong, and in this context, ugly.

Haha. I love my Chinese drama serials and want to learn conversational Mandarin, but this is too much.

Gosh. Being in JC has made me a melodramatic, repressed person.

All this is one blog post. If I saw myself blogging about such long-drawn out things, I'd knock myself on the head and tell me to go and study.

(no i am not dissing fair, straight haired people. don't you know how to read?)

i'm not in school today

Was struggling to get the video done yesterday. People got impatient though they weren't very cooperative, but it was fun.

It's a teacher's day dedication thing, and it'll go up in front of the whole school. Quite a last minute attempt but I think we did alright. They came up with the idea to do that appear-disappear thing where you start and stop recording so the person looks like they popped out of nowhere.

I was reviewing the video earlier.. It got a little boring, till I heard random things in the background.

Each person pops up, says something about our Math tutor, the class echoes it and the person disappears.

Wilbur pops in in a superman pose, turns to the camera and says "I don't know math."

The whole class goes "OOORRRR." like they do in primary school.

When they stop, suddenly Samuel says "NubSHIT!" a la DoTa/WoW/CS/etc.

Then Alex and Annchii pop in say "Caring" and "Compassionate" one after the other. The class didn't expect this, so they didn't echo. Instead...

Weird silence. Samuel : ".......YEAH!"

It's pretty hilarious. I'll put the video up... Maybe. Haha. It might be too retarded.

They initially wanted to do a skit, someone acting as Mrs Sze. They thought they'd do a typical math lesson and have something funny happen.

Samuel was so on for the idea. He had the perfect class setting in mind.

*points at Sharon* "She SLEEPS, we TALK and..... Alex do math!"

That really is a typical lesson for us. Sharon will sleep and none of us will pay attention except Alex.

recently i've taken to blogging in my head

Yeah. I just have some kickass lines in my head but after awhile they disappear.

I should:
a) Get a notebook and write them down
b) Be asking myself "Why in the name of fuck are you online blogging about stupid things when you should be studying?"

Weekend studying is never half as productive as weekday studying. Cause at least when it's a weekend, I can tell the damn difference.

So. My sister's new mattress came today, so the old one was shifted back onto the bedframe in my room. Sleepover anyone? You'll have an entire comfy bed to yourself :D

I'll be most definitely buying a D80 after the ezzems. Finally, a substantial hobby, and a reason to go out more often. And I now have.... 1,2..3... 12 dresses, including those to be worn with leggings. 4 of which I haven't worn. I need to stop. Well, I don't have anymore money anyway.

I think my family's going to the Night Safari on Tuesday night. Family-oriented fun it'll be, if my brother doesn't throw a bratty tantrum because a tapir is black and white or the Safari trams aren't Batmobiles or... the list can go on.

drum and bass is good for math

Music makes me happy. I could feel like total shit, and just pop out the iPod, and 5 minutes later, i'll be fine. And DnB always does the trick. More people need to listen to it, it's too good to be kept to yourself :D

I'm in a Big M chocolate milk mood.

20 minutes... Just enough time to run down to 7-eleven before America's Got Talent starts. If it rains i'll be tempted to bring Aresha's sun umbrella with me.

I'd pop it open when it starts raining, feel the water soak through, get wet and just... smile.

happy 1 day late national day woo!

So on the ninth. It was me, Yigang... and a whole load of other people. It totally slipped my mind that this year's crowd's gonna be way worse than any NDP at Kallang, but we were there early so we got pretty okay seats!

A lot of people there had their DSLRs and stuff, so people weren't too annoyed when I did things like stand on my seat for a second or two to take a picture with no flags waving in it.

Here's some pictures. They're not great, but i'm pretty happy. The weather got cloudy damn fast and I had to switch shutter speeds from 1250 to 30. Heh.

This year was just so so la. Fireworks sucked, the show itself sucked, the only good thing about it was the location (10/10 seriously) and the SAF demonstration. I have a thing for overly masculine machinery.

K enough cock talking. Pictures!


Yay Singjiarrpourrr! Ok la I ended up waving my flag retardedly too. Shut up.


I am a patriotic ninja.


I picked up this random boy with a mangkuk haircut off the street to come for NDP with me.


Don't make me Hoot the singing voice to you. Some random dude.


The people in alien chicken costumes motivators were having a shitload of fun.


The city backdrop was lovely.


The pictures will start getting darker coz of the horrible clouds. Flypast woo!


I thought the lighted balloons on the water were so damn nice. They should keep them there all the time.


The start of the military demonstration! This sparkly curtain thing was cool.


When I saw this stupid red bus my heart stopped for a second, and my phone buzzed.

"If they allowed Morry to have a gun he might just come out of that stupid red truck. Lol."
- From Mimi

Was thinking the exact same thing. :D


This year's cheesy coloured torchlight - Multicoloured stars. They were actually kinda nice.


It's a fucking white Lamborghini man. Oh, the people i'd murder to own it.


Amidst all the celebrations, we just had to. Check out the guy top right. Please do not scrutinize armpit fat, or I will sent brain-eating monkeys to your doorstep.


Almost to the fireworks... People got damn bored of the show. Well Yigang and I were anyways. Haha.


Blah fireworks. Like I said, nothing spectacular.



I took over 100 firework photos, and they all well... sucked. Blame the shitty fireworks.


Then the pledge, which Yigang was rehearsing in the MRT earlier. He actually... forgot.

The aftermath : 2 very tired, stoned, but happy people.





Something weird happened as we were walking to the stadium. Some lady stopped me and asked if I had tickets to spare. Wow. Either she never had one and was trying her luck, or lost hers and needed another. Strange.

After a huge Carl's Jr. dinner (coz I was craving Beef Chilli Cheese Fries - the best damn thing ever), we dragged our asses all the way back to shitty hall MRT station. At the platform we sat on a bench waiting for the train. The crowd was not so bad anymore cause a fair majority had left earlier while we camped and waiting for a table at Carl's Jr.

So the station wasn't so crowded, there were other places to sit. This not-so-old-but-grey-haired-kinda-old guy starts glaring at me, with an expression that screams 'you better get your ass off that seat cause its my godly fucking right as a semi-senior citizen and i'll bitch slap you back to where you came from.'

I didn't get up.

Normally, i'd give up my seat, out of the goodness of my heart. But this guy was really pushing it. He then stalks around the bench trying to hopefully levitate me off the seat by glaring at me hard enough. I cannot stand these kinda sickening Singaporeans.

Have some damn courtesy man. Fuck, I need to study tomorrow.

i love the feeling of new underwear

Mimi and I bought underwear from the Metro closing down sale earlier. First G-string I bought myself. The first one I received though was from the Bahluls on my 16th haha.

It's super psychedelic.

And 2 others.

And I was kinda reminded of what I told Mimi last time.

When i'm not attached, I don't feel the need to buy new pretty undies. Ok la let's be honest, who is there to show right? Haha.

I used to buy new underwear left right centre like every other day. Now they've gone all loose and have thread sticking out everywhere and I never used to give a damn.

Buying such pretty things has rekindled my love for buying newer awesomer underwear.

Who needs to please a boyfriend when you can be happy in your underwear? :D

(of course that's only the case for now.... i hope)

oh sheesh

On a lighter note.

Yigang and I will be at NDP 07! Woo! Tickets courtesy of the fashja, who will be sitting in the VIP section. Well at least he said he got tickets. So. Ya.

I have never been to Max Brenner's at the esplanade. Yes I know shut up. So we'll be treating ourselves to some lovely chocolate fondue cause I was yelling into the phone to Yigang telling him we should.

Will be borrowing the D70S and a 300mm lens from the school the day before.

Life is good. But to enjoy guilt-free i'll be mugging my ass off on Monday and Tuesday, cause I'm going to Chinatown with the sister tomorrow.

Aunty Gogi's gone, she left earlier. Kinda sad la, she was the only person who'd actually tell my mom off, especially since she's been acting like something got stuck up her ass the past month. It's downright irritating, and at this point i'm very irritable.

Ahurrr.

i hate justifying myself

So i'm not going to.

I'll let you think i'm like any other fucking 18 year old. Insolent, self-centred and stupid.

Because I am sick of this.

As i'm typing this, my brother is walking around me trying to piss me the fuck off.

They day you have something REAL to handle, something you can't drink off, something that will NEVER end eventually, something that'll make you want to rip your hair out every single fucking day, something that will never let you live your life like any normal teenager,

then you can judge me.

Till then.

FUCK THE HELL OFF.

if you haven't watched shaun of the dead...

Then you kinda suck. Go watch it. Now.

If you have, you'll enjoy these videos :D



"There isn't an I in TEAM, but there is an I... in pie. There's an I in meatpie. And MEAT is an anagram of TEAM."



Coldplay did a cameo!

Doesn't that make you wanna watch Shaun of the Dead? Now?

:D

everyone has their reasons

"First thing i'm gonna do when I get my bike is come to Bedok."

"For fuck?"

"You'll be the first person i'll pillion."

Is that sweet? I can't decide, he's too idiotic. But my anger's waning, cause he had his reasons, which he only told me last night on the phone.

88 days to the big A's. 4 weeks to prelims.

Can I die now?

milo and nestum... the breakfast of CHAMPIONS!

Am horribly horribly sick. 3rd flu in less than 3 months. I think it's the stress, I usually never fall sick.

Diedie I still had to study Electrochemistry for the test tomorrow... If i'm feeling up to it i'll attend school cause I have 2 days MC.

My brother is lurking around the house trying to irritate me as usual.

I've taken so much stupid medication that I actually feel a bit sick... from the medication. I never usually take more meds than 2 panadol tabs a time. Now I have 4 kinds to take. Uggh.

Revision's still veryvery slow, though it has definitely hit me and i'm procrastinating less thank god.

Can't wait to give this stupid blog a makeover, after the A's that is. Mom's off to Bintan this weekend! YAY!

But before I enjoy I gotta make sure I study enough first haha.

lets blog in questions

Can I drop a fucking brick on your head?

FUCK!

I'm so sick of JC.
I'm so sick of JC
I'm so sick of JC.
I'm so FUCKING. SICK. OF. JC.

Grr.

The novelty wears off fast. To think I was having the time of my life last year. It's not the mugging thats getting to me. It's not. It's everything else. I know it all ends in 3 months plus but the 3 months after that will be spent biting my nails wondering whether i'll ever make it later on in life.

I want to have a little peace of mind.

Another nonsense post.

Anyway, I told myself i'd never hike (or take a bus) across the country (which isn't very long, but still) to meet someone I didn't think was worth meeting.

Last Tuesday, I tested my little theory.

I guess you could say it was worth the trip. I DID finally get to play a ps3. It sure as hell doesn't disappoint. I looked at it in all its shiney-ness and just thought, "Fuck... Wow."

That, a plasma tv and a Bose sound system.... I nearly died, though I didn't quite show it. I kicked his ass at Need For Speed Carbon then we watched The Hills Have Eyes that we rented and it was such a crap show.

It was all so strange but I liked it. I don't know why strange la. I guess it's cause i'm finally taking a big step.

But the brakes are on cause someone needs to study unfortunately.