Frank Darabont + ZOMBIES + TV series = I MUST WATCH THIS

God when did I become so out of touch?

to be 11 again

It's been 10 years since I was a serious AXN addict. Time to find the DVD boxset. Gatekeepers <3

Imagine, some crazy lady who dresses up as a pirate and prances around the roof of her apartment block.

But anyway, I watched Gulliver's Travels today and thought of this song.

last few weeks in review

I hate this country more than ever. While the weather's always fine and things are somewhat cheaper, the people are crap and this country has zero compassion whatsoever.

Save for the people I know and love. They form part of a small minority that possibly cares.

Ashwin has been a huge part of my life, all my life. The last 3 weeks have taught me that really, this country is just not where I want him to be. Behind every face who wants to help is a space cadet, a disappearing act, a lot of words and no actions which has had us chasing our tails since day one. My parents are exhausted, and they've been dealing with this all year. It's only been 3 weeks and I feel inexplicably tired. And my sister? I can't even begin to imagine how she feels.

Since he's started school this week things have calmed down significantly. The house is quiet most of the day, I can finally sleep. But i'm prepared for a lack of it when the weekend comes around.

Monday was his review at IMH (previously known as Woodbridge) and Aresha told the doc along with subordinates and case workers pretty much the whole story. From childhood up till now. And how Ashwin behaves now is a manifestation of all that he and us went through as kids. A job, and several Personal Protection Orders later it all stopped when I was about 10.

While there are kids out there who turned out awesome with equally awesome parenting, there are some who just needed a good slap or two when they were kids. Like I might've mentioned before, i'm always thankful for the experiences in my life cos they've contributed to the person i've become today. But at what cost?

Then again, normalcy? Having been in Australia for 2 years, a taste of calm opposed to 19 years of chaos. If only I could have my family with me. I could go the rest of uni without being home even once, but the sense of abandonment is too much for me to just disregard everything we've been through as a family and how tightly knit we've become from it.

happy new year