just dropkick

This scenario has been playing in my head all week. Ever since starting uni once again, i've had moments where I was put on the spot, asked a question about something I vaguely remember reading once last year for an exam. And didn't know the answer. Or knew it, but had no confidence in what I knew. And times where I've forgotten to do something, and other times where I wanted to say something, but didn't, then regretted it. Too much going on.

So each time any of the above happens, my mind immediately conjures an image of myself dropkicking my notebook. It's rather comical. My notebook isn't particularly great for dropkicking but amongst all my belongings at the time I felt it was the easiest I could part with in case I broke it (vs say... my phone or stethoscope, and a pen would be quite hard to dropkick). Today it all came to a boil and I finally dropkicked my notebook.

RxWorks, is a program that never disappoints in the disappointment department because it never actually works. Just dropkick.

Get into an accident that puts your car out of commission? Just dropkick.

Insurance company ruled against you despite the other driver being a reckless hack? Just dropkick.

Popped the cap of your phone bill to astronomical proportions? Just dropkick.

Answered a question wrong? Dropkick.

Spent 4 hours on an assignment worth nothing? Just dropkick.

Thank god tomorrow is Friday. I hope February brings better things.

milestone in life : got into a car accident

Not really gonna go into details, except to say that it was NOT my fault and that this lady was insane pulling out across oncoming traffic and into my way and then proceeded to blame me for it.

Somehow the insurance company isn't giving me quite the vote of confidence I needed to get my excess refunded (1.3k :O) but I've done everything I can. Also, the people I love have been such angels. First my parents said they were proud of me (lol?) and told me not to worry, it's just a car and most importantly I am safe. Despite Bidina's malfunctioning thermostat she drove about 30 minutes out of her way to work to send me to Richmond and Asami offered to drive me home the next morning after we had a night out of drinks and seeing Empra at the Corner Hotel in Richmond. Just as I was wrapping up my rather disappointing holidays. Oh well. TIME TO LOOK FORWARD GO!

to answer all your questions

At this point in my life, the answer is bleah. Hopefully the only post about this shit low point in my life, I don't want any more reminders. And excuses to wallow.

Hello 2013! Big big plans you have for me and my life. Let's just keep looking forward, like a horse with blinders on.

(in 2012, I went for a massive Melbourne to Sydney coastal road trip with David Cooper for about 2 weeks. It was fantastic, saw and did things I thought only occurred in the recesses of my imagination.

I completed 3 weeks of equine placement at a equine clinic I shall not name. Had a great time and at the same time didn't. Too much going on at the same time as nothing at all. You like my riddles? Cemented my interest in horses but didn't get enough out of it. Ah well, lessons learnt.

Instead of coming home, I decided to spend my first full Aussie summer here since I had fewer holidays to play with and felt like spending Christmas and New Year's here with David and his family would be a good idea. And also to work heaps and earn some good moolah for graduation and the like. Boy did one and a half of those ideas fall flat on their asses.)