everyone has their reasons

"First thing i'm gonna do when I get my bike is come to Bedok."

"For fuck?"

"You'll be the first person i'll pillion."

Is that sweet? I can't decide, he's too idiotic. But my anger's waning, cause he had his reasons, which he only told me last night on the phone.

88 days to the big A's. 4 weeks to prelims.

Can I die now?

milo and nestum... the breakfast of CHAMPIONS!

Am horribly horribly sick. 3rd flu in less than 3 months. I think it's the stress, I usually never fall sick.

Diedie I still had to study Electrochemistry for the test tomorrow... If i'm feeling up to it i'll attend school cause I have 2 days MC.

My brother is lurking around the house trying to irritate me as usual.

I've taken so much stupid medication that I actually feel a bit sick... from the medication. I never usually take more meds than 2 panadol tabs a time. Now I have 4 kinds to take. Uggh.

Revision's still veryvery slow, though it has definitely hit me and i'm procrastinating less thank god.

Can't wait to give this stupid blog a makeover, after the A's that is. Mom's off to Bintan this weekend! YAY!

But before I enjoy I gotta make sure I study enough first haha.

lets blog in questions

Can I drop a fucking brick on your head?

FUCK!

I'm so sick of JC.
I'm so sick of JC
I'm so sick of JC.
I'm so FUCKING. SICK. OF. JC.

Grr.

The novelty wears off fast. To think I was having the time of my life last year. It's not the mugging thats getting to me. It's not. It's everything else. I know it all ends in 3 months plus but the 3 months after that will be spent biting my nails wondering whether i'll ever make it later on in life.

I want to have a little peace of mind.

Another nonsense post.

Anyway, I told myself i'd never hike (or take a bus) across the country (which isn't very long, but still) to meet someone I didn't think was worth meeting.

Last Tuesday, I tested my little theory.

I guess you could say it was worth the trip. I DID finally get to play a ps3. It sure as hell doesn't disappoint. I looked at it in all its shiney-ness and just thought, "Fuck... Wow."

That, a plasma tv and a Bose sound system.... I nearly died, though I didn't quite show it. I kicked his ass at Need For Speed Carbon then we watched The Hills Have Eyes that we rented and it was such a crap show.

It was all so strange but I liked it. I don't know why strange la. I guess it's cause i'm finally taking a big step.

But the brakes are on cause someone needs to study unfortunately.

can you say.....

Blow up doll?




















Click it for horrifying video terror.

Anyone who can kill this girl for me gets a nice big wet smooch.

From Dog.

I need to blog more.

Really.

Hrm.

fireworks and moodswings

I spent the entire weekend doing nothing academically productive. *slaps self*

Saturday was spent watching Die Hard 4, then a takeaway Long Johns dinner at Fort Canning. It's a great place if you have good company. Hmm.

Then today! Woke up and was told we were going for Uncle Mohan's mini birthday celebration at Patti's house. So within an hour we left. Just me, Aresha and my mom. My dad and bro? Haha let's just say..... Ok don't ask.

Kavitha was there and I totally didn't recognise her. The last time I saw her, four years ago she was my age with freckles and wearing glasses. Now.... She's GORRRGEOUSSS (a la Steve Irwin).

Really. She's got a great tan and has the best complexion ever. She was heading back to Aussie tonight so I thought hey let's go out or something.

Went to Serangoon Road in the evening, did eyebrows, had tea and thosai, window shopped at Bugis St and called it a night. She's really great company, I hope she comes down again at the end of the year.

ROAR ITS SCHOOL TOMORROW I HAVEN'T DONE ANY WORK SO I am ded.

i want to be lesbian

Guys are jerks. Really. I've finally come to that conclusion after telling people it's not entirely true.

Women drive men crazy?

FUCK la we can say the exact same thing about you JERKS.

In the past few months, I've felt like i've been screwed over several times, by several JERKS.

Congrats, you did a good job of making me feel like shit for things I have no control over.

Simply because I don't live up to YOUR expectations, I get shit for it. When things don't go your way, you go OUT OF YOUR WAY to irritate the living shit out of me.

I have problems. I have real issues to deal with that you blissfully don't. You understand that. So WHY would you continue to hassle me about unnecessary things?

Stupid things like.... why I ask so many questions? Why i'm not telling you my fucking life story?

Ignoring me for stupid things like a fucking crush I had on you a whole bledy year ago? How childish can they get?

I CAN'T be there at your beck and call as hard as I try and I DON'T come up with excuses not to meet your sorry asses when there is nothing to fucking lie about.

Aiya. So many different kinds of jerkwads. I think they spawn from someone's smelly armpit.

Just. Give me a break. I'm not an amazing person, I just try my best.

my head is going to explode.

I'm..... applying for the University of.....

Cambridge.

My first choice.
I'm making a mistake and i'm wasting away my first choice of a UK university. Am I?

If I don't get straight As then unlikely I will get in.

And I am paying 380 bucks to sit for the Biomedical Admissions Test in October so I can qualify. Only if I do good for that as well, that is. Otherwise it's a waste of a lot of moolah.

This is so stressful. Everything's happening so fast. One moment I thought I could settle university nonsense after my A's, and the next, i'm rushing my JC tutors to write me references and predict a possible grade for me so I can send it in with my application.

My choices are (in no particular order):

University of Cambridge
Royal Veterinary College, London
University of Bristol
University of Liverpool
University of Edinburgh
University of Glasgow

My mom says I should have more faith in myself. I kept beating myself up about choosing top universities. But it just so happens recognised vet science degrees worldwide are from these universities.

Gah. First things first.

Finish my application - get tutors to do school report, write my personal statement. As well as fill up the Cambridge Admission Form.

Then study for the Biomedical Admissions Test.

Then wonder if i'll get shortlisted for an interview.

Then cross my fingers and hope I get conditional offers from most of them.

THEN, pray to god I get the closest thing possible to 3 As.

I HATE having this undue pressure. So many things to worry about.

On a lighter note, I managed 11 pullups (INCLINED)! And you know WHY I couldn't manage more than 3 the first time?

Because the bar wasn't high enough. The shorter bar was too low for my body and arms. The taller bar was SO much easier! Wah cheeeeeebai I really thought I was hopeless.

So that means I got a GOLD for my Napha babey! Woo! I'm still hip happenin' fit.

AND! I PASSED MATH! Haha. Ok la it's not THAT big a deal but when only 20% of the cohort passed math at least there's a small reason to celebrate right? Especially because I could've put in a bit more effort for prepping for it.

Man what a boring entry. AAAAAAHHHH.

I'm supposed to meet Mimi in an hour.

But i'm still here reading SomethingAwful threads.

Haha! Transformers here I come.

french movies > any other movies

Just watched He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not on Central. Damn good movie, I love Audrey Tatou. She played an erotomaniac brilliantly.

What is it?

2. Psychiatry A delusional, romantic preoccupation with a stranger, often a public figure.

Freaky. In the movie she was given several years of treatment and medication, but she used all the medication to create a giant mosaic of the guy she loved behind her cupboard in the room.

Tomorrow i'm gonna watch Transformers with MIMI! YAY! You know we've never gone out properly since... ever. So FINALLY! Even if there's school the next day. When I asked my mom, she said "you better have good test results." Wah I really think my whole family's taking it too far.

Yay.