merry christmas! sorta.

Hello everyone. It's been... weeks? I don't know. Ever since my computer fucked up i've resorted to 10 mins on my sister's macbook. Speaking of which, I am gonna start saving up for one, right after I get all my photos off the old computer with my external hard drive.

Been kinda off the radar as of late. Working, clubbing, random nights with Aresha and Amit. I've become numb to how fast time passes. Trying hard not to think that i'm one month closer to getting the A level results.

The yearly Christmas eve party was postponed to Christmas Day, so I worked on Christmas Eve at almost double pay, weehoo! That would mean I'm one step closer to buying my camera, yes?

On Christmas Day, the year I chose not to buy anyone anything because I had to save up, I got the most surprising presents. I made the Christmas dinner instead. Oh by the way, I have proven myself not to be a failure in the kitchen anymore. 

I roasted two whole chickens! And made stuffing and all that jazz all on my own, and it tasted goooood. 

But that aside, remember awhile ago I said I wanted a rat really really badly? I had given up on the idea awhile when I couldn't find a seller.

Surprise surprise, Aresha gave me a rat for Christmas! I'd post pictures, but my computer's fucked so i'll save it for another day. Rasputin the rat, he's the new man in my life. He's only 4 weeks old and is the size of a mouse, so it's only a matter of time. He likes to nibble fingernails and licks everything. 

And from my mom, a D80. I'm not kidding. I think my life has new meaning now. 

I can move out of this short phase of mild depression.

:)

distant

Feels so much better to offload everything. Met Yigang at his place and went to the nearby Mubarak place for some rojak. Told him everything inside out, and admitted to everything I was feeling. And I realise that having too much free time will be detrimental to me.

Because I have too much time to think and mull over things. So I just might take his advice and get a day job. Working at Wild Oats is alright, the people have been fun and I've gotten used to the routine. But I still have extra time on my hands.

Perhaps I should put more effort into convincing my parents to buy me a camera. So I could devote myself full time to it. I've been looking at my photos, and as much as there is room for improvement, I definitely have something i'm sure.

Focusing on the positives. I have a few friends coming to visit me Friday night at work. People! Visit me!

I now know how to open a wine bottle and serve wine. Cool ah! But I am still too weak to carry 6 Tiger beers on a tray. After awhile of carrying those darn deck tables and chairs inside and outside I think I should be ok :D

Boring already my life. Oh well, I believe its only a matter of time.

i am built for a bigger cause

My life is not fulfilling enough. I know there is something much, much bigger out there and it has my name on it.

Since the A's just ended my life is just starting out, leaving so much room to do all sorts of things. Yeah so the past 24 hours hasn't exactly been ideal, but I shouldn't let it get me down so much. On the contrary, shisha with Maya and Ameer was good fun, as always, sans the wheezing monstrosity of a man that was seated next to me.

I am starting to get sick of the people around me.

I think I need a better paying job.

I need to stop sleeping with the air-con.

I looked up Pol Pot's secret prision, S-21 and felt something stir inside me. No, it wasn't just my stomach, but more of a deep urge to go to Cambodia again.

I have to buy a D80 asap.

My life is really not complete. I have been rejected by Cambridge, but that comes as no surprise because now I know it's because of that fucking B my bitch of a Chemistry tutor predicted for me. Remember I said I would go on a murderous rampage? Well not so much now, but if the weather continued to pms like it has for the past 2 days I might've just done so.

I'm going to work tonight, and I shall contemplate my life on the way there. Because I know I am capable of bigger, badder things. A Level results aside, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. We've always lived for the now.

I will pick myself up and have a kickass December leading up to 2008.

waiting

Got so much to blog about.

Ok so let try and break it down.

Was at Mimi's last Monday to Thursday. It was all about swimming and watching movies. Thanks for putting up with me in your house for so long. Her dad is damn funny. Didn't manage to lose the boncit with all the swimming though, sadly.

Prom was bad. But I was nominated for prom queen! HAHA! Me of all people! I didn't win, but I did get a snazzy t-shirt dress out of it. But it was a size M, so it looks like a nightie on me. Although, that didn't stop me from wearing it to Woodlands. Haha.

The nominees had to catwalk in the most embarassing way possible, with girls needing to shake their bootays behind each male teacher sitting at the VIP, and then making the most suggestive noise possible followed by asking into the microphone, 'Am I hot?'

By far, THE most embarassing thing i've ever done, probably after drinking a blowjob shot in front of everyone sometime last year.

It was just really dull apart from that. Half the time I was outside looking for updates about post prom ticket sales from Joshua.

Oh yes, my prom dress came. Yes, the dress that I bought online that I thought was lost. It came last Monday. It looked fantastic on the day itself, and I didn't feel the least bit slutty. Haha.

The train, like Meijuan warned me, was stepped on so many times. I was being very nice when I asked people to please get off my dress.

Just went through the photos. They all suck. Didn't really take much photos, I felt so uncomfortable in so much make up.

Post prom was an absolute blast though. I really have to thank everyone for showing up - even the last minute bastards who bought tickets. It all counts. We didn't make the $4000 bar sales mark because Zouk was mad-ass expensive, but everyone made it a great night. The Officials too, I bet walking around with those tags felt awesome haha, but good job on your part too for making sure the underaged kiddos weren't drinking.

And also the certain someone, who brought a friend, finally danced with me after taking 10 years and much prompting. And when he finally decided he wanted to, it felt like Jackson 5's Hallelujah Day was playing in my head. No i'm not exaggerating, and the song title sounds a bit too much, but it was just that feeling.

After all the running around, making sure everything was okay, everyone was having fun and the underaged wasn't drinking, I finally settled into 3 drinks and dancing with Mimi, boy and his friend. From then it was laughing at chinese retards who didn't know how to dance, bitching about random minahs around us and laughing at drunk people.

The night ended way too early at 3am, leaving many disappointed. It was still full house by that time. Ugh, why Zouk? Why? Why do you like to spoil the fun?

Aresha and me went home and let Siti Hamimah crash at our place. Got a call at 5am from Zahra telling us to come down to Simpang and so we did. After watching the last 20 mins of the Man U/Fulham match, we went home to sleeeep.

Before sending Mimi home I got some nice scratches on my hands and wrists from restraining Ash. He flew into a rage while we were still sleeping and was just starting to tear the kitchen apart once again when I got so mad I just dragged him into his room with Judith's help and restrained him inside. Mimi slept through the whole ordeal. HAHA

Yeh so that's about it. I start work tomorrow from 7-11pm at Wild Oats Bar On the Hill.

Come visit me! I'll be working on Friday and Saturday too. The manager is awesome and mad fun.

The only thing is that getting there is a bitch and a half. Still, the drinks are good and the atmosphere is tops, so DROP BY OK.

Besides, tomorrow's training, i'll be all alone.

Parents will be out of town from Thursday onwards for just a couple of days. PARTAY I SAYS!

God i'm so deprived.

prom is tomorrow

And I haven't done anything. I haven't epilated my arms, nor gone for my manicure.

I've just gotten my period, when I was planning to wear a g-string.

I have never touched a tampon, and am actually scared to death of them.

I have not made my hair or make up appointment, and every hotel i've looked up is fully booked.
Post prom is killing me - I wish I didn't have to worry about it.

My face is breaking out.

Yeah. I just want it over. I just want it over, start my job and just screw everything else. I have yet to have a day where I can worry about absolutely nothing.