for some reason i don't feel like leaving

I know, I know, I could give you 5 names in 2 seconds of people who'd slap me for saying that.

Don't know why la.

It's not anyone in particular.

Maybe it's just the fact that I could possibly be using up all my savings just for this trip. It's not much but here it could go a reasonably long way.

No money, no suitcase, ugh this sucks.

I just like.... want one more night of happy fun, with close friends, booze, the sea breeze.

Maybe it's not so much me leaving now... But just a preview of how it could feel like next year.

This is a preview of me, leaving, coz the next time around it'll be for 5 years.

Will I come back?

I hate this godforsaken country, but my friends - the people that have stuck around through the deepest shit - I love them like family. I always believed in having friends till you're grey-haired and wrinkly.

Well at least Yigang said he'll come live with me should I ever move to the UK. That's a start. :D

2 more days!

Yay

Signed up for BTT also, I can't believe I waited this long. It takes hella long to get your license. I'm in no rush, but it would be quite handy.

Am gonna take a nap now. I feel like someone dropped a rock on my head in my sleep.

Just to take note : Coldplay's fourth album will be out June 16th! VIVA LA VIDA! Apparently it was produced by Dr Dre - don't know if its true or not, but even the album artwork doesn't look very Coldplay.
























Still.... 16th June! Just thinking about it gives me the jitters.

KUTUHEADZ

Question: Is the presence of lice a sign of poor personal hygiene?

Answer: No, head lice seem to prefer a clean scalp; and otherwise show no particular preference for a human host's sex, race, age or socio-economic status.


..........

What if they did have a preference?

"Sorry, I don't DO homeless people." *waves a lousey claw*

No I don't have kutus.... but... SOMEONE DOES.....

please buy microphones

Damn it, rapidshare. Damn you, runny nose.

I have a thing for cleaning my ratty's cages in the middle of the night. Strange kicks I get.

So, preps for the trip are underway. Am currently short on the moolah so I need to spend much, much less. Maybe just a regular manicure instead of the french one. Bought my bag and skirt yesterday with Yigang and Aresha. When The Lawn first opened, Yigang asked me to go with him and check it out. It was a good year ago I think. Actually more.

Everything was holy expensive. I mean, I do occasionally make that backside-tearing splurge but I didn't really see anything I liked, until I saw a bag. A striped green yellow maroon sling bag with DA embroidered on the flap. It was the only thing I wanted to buy, and it was only $70 at the time which probably was a steal. Since it was green, I thought hey wow a bag that I could use for school (coz TPJC's colour is green hurrr) but chose not to buy it later.

I thought buying stuff JUST for two years of school was a bit redundant. Stuff meaning bags, shoes etc apart from the compulsory school shoes but everything I bought wasn't specially for school. I could use them anywhere anytime and I thought this particular bag might not fit that bill.

Kinda shot myself in the foot by buying that bag yesterday :D

Yesterday, I saw it chucked in a plastic box in a room away from the female section upstairs, with all the other sales items in a room with all the lights shut off. Only found it after much digging around. They had jacked the price up to $100, and it was half off, so I bought it for the UK trip. Well not JUST for the trip but for everything else as well.

But I don't think i'll be handcarrying it on the plane. I might just grab one of the old Tatanka haversacks in the cupboard. As unglamorous as it looks, a sling bag is heavy as fucking hell with a 2.2kg lappie + DSLR, what more all my other bits and bobs I need to bring along.

I want to make sure my trip is as satisfying as possible. The previous one was alright, could definitely have been better if I had more time. Now I do, so.... I just hope the weather is on my side. I'll have to make a list of places I want to go.

I think Stonehenge is quite mystifying. I'd really like to go, but I have a feeling i'll be disappointed and might've wasted a fair amount of pounds x3 into SGD. Can't wait to hit the flea markets! You can actually find QUALITY shite there, unlike the flea markets here. That is if I find them. Damn you, London and your strong currency.

Some quality alone time will do me some good too. Need the time to think, reflect on things that have happened over the past couple of months.

There's no reason for me to be afraid of being in a relationship, yet... I just can't bring myself to be in one. To be able to just do whatever with whoever, without worrying about hurting anyone's feelings (ok this sentence sounds kinda wrong) is something i've grown used to for the last 2 years. But you get what I mean right.

So now, have I not had enough? Technically, I should be ready to just go with it right. But something just doesn't feel right. I've dated around, tested the water if you'd like to put it, and I feel like this one could just be another.... Its harsh but he has yet to really come across as that one i'd like to put effort into.

Bleh I want to just fuck off on a plane now. Too bad it's another WEEK. I've only ever been on a plane alone once. The trip home from the UK, the flight that I missed initially due to a power failure on the train tracks, the one I sprained my neck on. Gah.

I'll blog during the Dubai stopover. I have three hours to do absolutely fuckall. Maybe buy some cookies with the 10 dirhams that have been rotting in my wallet since 2006. Hrm.

Tomorrow's a full day. Need to do some shite at the bank, cut my hair, check up on my tuition kid's cat + give tuition, so at least that'd spell the end of rotting at home, sick.

fuck the flu

Been down with the sickness since Saturday night. Also, I have a newfound hatred for pink polo tees.

I just don't like themmmm.

Also, when I go to the UK for 3 weeks I will be missing my ratties like crazy. Rasputin has been adorable the past couple of days. Stalin's still quite anti-social although he seems to want to follow Rasputin everywhere he goes. Monkey see monkey do. Rasputin also has a penchant to explore every single corner of the room, including the cupboards and window sills.

He now knows how to access any part of the room if - the cupboards aren't closed properly and when I leave things on the shelves for him to climb. My room's not exactly rat-proof so it does get a bit frustrating, but all it takes to get him out of his little hiding places is just the crackle of the plastic package that the little kitten health pellets come in.

He goes absolutely WHACKO for those little pellets, like a ratty on crack.

So this flu right, has me waking up in the middle of the night hacking phlegm and massasging my head from a splitting headache. I woke up at about 6am this morning simply from discomfort.

Tomorrow the WO girlies have plans to hit the beach. If I haven't at least 80% recovered i'll have to give it a miss, and continue having the disgusting tan lines from the air show in FEBRUARY. No joke. 2 hours of sitting in the sun really burned into my skin, you can still see the shape of my tank top up till now. It's horrible.

Have been downloading close to 30 episodes of Samurai X since 2 days ago. The secret is... Rapidshare! And a paid account is absolutely necessary. Movies take less than half a day to download, it's amazing.

Okay my eyes are starting to ache. God damn this flu.

hello world, this is stalin

Depending on your computer, this pic may be too dark. So too bad then.
























Crappy photos coz I was just plain tired. Will take better ones soon.

Apparently he's 4 weeks old, but I think he's younger. Rasputin hasn't shown any signs of aggression, which is great, but he isn't showing much signs of interest either.

Stalin on the other hand, keeps trying to crawl under Rasputin's belly. Really makes me think he's not 4 weeks old :/

Rasputin's a platinum/grey hooded rat, and Stalin is a beige hooded rat, but he looks a bit more Dumbo.

Dumbo meaning a rat breed, not the derogatory term. Dumbo rats tend to have a rounder dolphin-like forehead, unlike regular hooded rats that just have a slant, straight forehead. But we won't be able to really tell until he grows a little. He's terrified of people, tho I just got him yesterday night. He'll take awhile and in the meantime i'll get him adjusted to Rasputin.

I need to start sourcing for a big-ass cage to house both rattys, wahhh backside tear :(

On to other things.

I don't think I blogged about last last week's BBQ for my birthday! It was great la, in every way possible. Just my closest friends laughing and talking cock, eating and playing the Wii.

Initially I was nay close to just cancelling it because sometimes my family can really test my patience. I was so lost as to how to prepare all the food that I called Maya bawling like a retard. The woman is my saviour I swear, without her I think I really would've just cancelled.

Was simple, playing like 1 game of twister before we got distracted by Wario on the Wii haha. That game is pure hilarity, and probably the one reason why anyone should buy a Wii.

Maya's chocolate cheesecake was beyond amazing, and it was finished by the end of the night. The last few slices were pounced on by my cousins and Aunty Gogi when they came back from a party. Ernie came later with even more cake from Secret Recipe, which my family happily devoured over the course of the following 3 days, save for 1 which I stuck two unlit candles on and served to Yigang the following Monday morning cause it was his 20th!

Iggy! No longer a teenager. You have no more excuses! Haha!

Yigang has been coming over almost everyday the past few weeks for work. But I swear, the home environment is totally inconducive for this kinda work. The lethargy that comes with the weather, after lunch, then lounging on the sofa with the TV on till we almost drift into a full-blown nap has occured one too many times.

I haven't visited the vet since weeeeks ago. I feel bad about it, but I will go back next week. This week the boy is booking out early, and also I want to buy some things for the trip.

For the last 2 weeks Aunty Gogi, David and Aniek have desecrated my room. Okay la that's a bit extreme but stomping on my stuffed toys? Leaving bits of food in weird places? I can't even find some of my stuff. But that aside, having them around was, although a headache and a half, enjoyable because they were not as bratty as before.

Still pretty bratty but it wasn't hard to sort them out. Sometimes they'll put on their atas English ang moh airs but we tried to open their eyes as much as possible while they were here.

They left just a few hours ago, and should be somewhere between India and here by now, i'm not entirely sure how far the last 3 hours would've taken them.

Am now back in my own room, in my own space doing my own thing. I think this is best for a healthy sister-sister relationship. Hmm.

1 day less than 2 weeks till me in the UK. Kinda surreal, going there alone. But I think i'll be okay, maybe befriend a random in the plane/train/bus. Aresha was shocked when I told her I don't have friends in the UK.

Is it really shocking? I mean... no one I know has yet to go there to study, even then they'll only be there September. And apart from Amit and Jason (A Sides), there aren't any other DNB artistes that I got to know well enough to really meet up with them while i'm there.

In this gap year I need to travel. A lot. Should make a list. Now.

Cambodia again, of course
Thailand, one of those cool islands Aresha's been to like Koh Samui or Koh Phangan
Batam, with the girlies
Bali, because it's just so beautiful but I heard since I was last there it's been overrun with chao ang mohs urgh

Japan, whoa dream big
KL, because the boy wants to

It's strange, apart from Japan I wouldn't really think of going anywhere new. I need a decent paying job when I get back from the UK. It'll be like 'okay reality check girly, you need a JOB job.'

No more brainless waitressing and misc jobs. Its the real deal, well at least for a good 8 months. The prospects of full-time tuition look very naisee...

I should consider an ad in the Classifieds with some decepticon of a description like.... straight 'A' Level Distinctions Student (with bad grammar, but it's Singapore where 'native English speakers' come from the USA or the UK where people can't even fucking spell for fuck's sake okstop), reasonable rates offering 'O' Level Biology, Chemistry, E Math, English blah dee dah.. Reasonably attractive.. Ok wait it's tuition i'm offering.

Now i'm reminded of that Sufiah Yusof woman (this isn't to say i'm likening myself to a genius, or a hot hooker). The sad case of a child genius turned prostitute. Then again, people will argue as to who am I to judge her choices in life, as long as she's happy? Tho this is true, Sufiah is really putting it out there and glossing over the ugly details, who's to determine the effect of this on impressionable young girls? At 14 when I was a wayward monkey, if I read something like that I would be wondering eh eh.... If life's so easy for her then.... etc.

Branding prostitution to be something so lucrative, it could be, but not for everyone.

Most of my sentence structures are directly out of my head. So in a nutshell, i'm having a discussion with myself.

But hey, this totally proves my point from before that geniuses confirm got a screw loose somewhere, some wiring in the brain gone wrong. Haha! Totally subjective, but it's an extremely amusing observation.

I need to pee now, so I might as well wrap this up. There's a mighty crack in the toilet seat in the bathroom, and I need to take extra care when sitting my ass down on it, should the crack (pun hurr) open and kiap my bum.

Yes, ouch.

No doubt this Rasputin had lots of hidden charms

So, everyone.

I have finally made the decision to buy a new ratty. Male, coz I don't want to castrate Rasputin, I don't want to take the risk. If they don't get along then no choice, i'll have to perpetually separate the two. Still at least Rasputin will have a friend.








































At least a smaller friend than Dog. Dog scares the living daylights out of Rasputin.

But Dog'll never bite or try to eat Rasputin, she acknowledges another living thing. Just like Rasputin will never bite fingers because he knows its skin.

I need to buy more ratty toys..

The new rat has been christened the name Stalin, by Yigang. Haha but we must see if the name suits him or not.

Gah. Money supply's depleting. I have no idea how i'm gonna save up at least 300pounds for the UK trip. But the new ratty's worth it at least.

on a brighter note

I got into vet school.

University of Melbourne. It's all yay yippee hooray but now the real problem is the moolah.

We have no moolah.

So how?

Die lah. :)

I am sick and tired.

Of you, criticizing almost every single choice in my life. Criticizing the way I choose to do things, the way I've tried to plan my life for myself.

Of all the things i've achieved for myself in my own ways, in my own right, they might not be significant in YOUR eyes, because clearly nothing is good enough for you;

I have absolutely no problem in articulating myself.
I do have more than one brain cell, thank you very much.
I am the exact opposite of you. I am the anti-you. I couldn't be you if I tried, not that i'm trying. And neither can you, me. Don't even say that if you did what I did you would've done so much better, because that's probably what you're telling yourself.

In your head, I know you think you are better than me in almost every aspect possible. You can jump to your own conclusions, build up your giant wall of defence and tear me down to as small as you can make me, cause you seem pretty good at it. And proud of that fact too. Like you said, you can be cutting.

I have my own merits, as well as my own faults. Just because they don't share common ground with yours, doesn't give you the right to criticize.

If you read this, I don't even want to hear you justify everything you've said. Just... digest this, and think, maybe Aruna really does have her own take on her life, maybe, just maybe, instead of shooting her down all the time, maybe I could give her constructive advice.

Otherwise I really just.. don't want to hear it.

Ok i'm done.

time to blog is now a luxury

I feel bad for the cat, but this is beyond hilarious.

nineteen and a day old

Yes, happy Aruna new year everyone.

This means the above age is wrong. And i'm no longer a struggling JC student with no life. I am now struggling on the road to vet school. *crosses fingers*

Aresha has been in HK for the past 3 days for a gig, leaving a brain-exhausting amount of work for Yigang and I to figure out. Oh, Yigang has just started working for Aresha's new company, Eight Communications. So that means I get to see my best friend everyday. Which is great really, it's been stupid fun, mostly work, but still fun.

And for those who don't know, i'll be having a mini BBQ this coming Saturday to celebrate my year closer to death. Those who are invited already know, and if i've missed you out drop me a msg k? It'll be a night of BBQed food on our not-so-new grill, Nintendo Wii, Taboo, maybe Twister and maybe a decent amount of booze.

And I know everyone wants to see Rasputin! Don't deny it, you definitely want to. My little cuzzins from the UK will also be running around.

So coming at about 7-8pm would be good. If you wanna come early, you can but you must help me set up. Pa left for Bangkok at 5.45am this morning, so that means a lot of heavy lifting. I hope it doesn't rain. Eep.

The birthday was aaaallllright la. Had lunch out, came back and continued working till 6, left to give tuition, rushed back, did a bit of laundry and fed Dog, then rushed to get ready and left to meet Yiling and Yincheng. Since all the girlies had stuff on tomorrow, it was just us 3 last night. Left our bags and got our entry chop at Phuture, then took a cab to Arena.

After clarifying that it was really free entry and free drinks, I confidently walked right up to the bouncer to get in. Then he said two words, "ID please."

"OHHH SHI- Yiling did you bring your IC??"

"Oh my god! I left it in my bag at Phuture!"

"OH MY GOD YOU TWO AH" - yincheng

It was a classic moment I swear. We couldn't stop laughing about it. Yincheng was extremely patient with us the entire time, during which we took a cab all the way back to Phuture to get our ICs. Bumped into idiot Ernie haha, she pinched me so hard I smacked her in the chest. HAHA. Can't wait to see her this Saturday!

After about 5 lychee martinis we were starting to feel the buzz, and were sick of the martinis. So we switched to vodka sprites, of which I downed about three. And that was it.

Phuture was full of ugly guys, it was horrible. I did bump into Jocelyn, Samantha and Regina tho, so it wasn't so bad. I was taken aback when Samantha told me she had the dress I was wearing. She's also got a bob for a haircut and was wearing a classy poncho-looking dress. Definitely not the Samantha I remember from TPJC.

Overall it was a pretty okay night, finally did the partying I've been meaning to do for the past 3 weeks and spent my birthday with good friends.

Hopefully my mom will be in a good mood while Aunty Gogi is here, she lands tomorrow. Then she won't feel the need to cancel the BBQ coz Pa isn't here.

As for work, i'm going to be doing some major bumming the week onwards till I leave for the UK - aka FINISH MY DAMN SCHOLARSHIP APPLICATIONS. I also need to work on my Murdoch essay and send it out.

I'll be working only Fridays at Wild Oats, so my pay will be more pathetic than usual this month. I guess it's good timing, coz I might just be stopping. But when I come back from the UK i'll need time to get a proper job so working there could buy me some time.

But yay! I got my weekend back! I've been working every single damn Saturday night for the past 4 months and it's quite sad to see all the happy people coming to Wild Oats for drinks after a movie, or before a night out.

Just got a call from Asri from camp, he misses me! So sweet la! I haven't seen him since results day, and even then I couldn't give him a hug because his mom was behind him. I asked him to come for the BBQ, hopefully he can make it.

One last thing - I've finally booked my ticket to the UK, for three weeks. It took be HOURS to get the booking done because I was using Aresha's Skywards miles for Emirates, and after so much hassle, and a real GEM of a woman from the Singapore Emirates office who helped me out for an hour over the phone, I finally got it booked for the 30th of April, at a grand total of SGD$500. :)

Can't wait to leave. Really need the break. I'll be sitting in fields writing poetry. Hopefully the weather would've warmed up. But I bought a pair of adorable knitted boots from the US, so I should be prettay comfy.

Oh man, for the next 2 weeks that my Aunty and cousins are here i'll have to bunk in with Aresha. I foresee many stupid arguments.