Had a sorta eventful weekend.
Ash smashed up the entire kitchen on Sunday.
I told the parents to go out. Pa received a letter from Citibank saying they'd give him either a $200 Takashimaya voucher or a 2D/1N stay at the Ritz Carlton if they just attended a preview of some exclusive club thing. They're not even obliged to sign up. I told them to go for it.
And then Ash went off. Shards of porcelain, broken soya sauce and alcohol bottles, a toppled gas canister and 4 police officers later, Ash was in handcuffs and had chunks of broken glass and porcelain wedged in his feet. I had to keep calling my mom as he was breaking everything - I was torn between charging into the kitchen to stop him, taking a golf club and beating the shit out of him, or just stand by and watch him turn the kitchen upside down.
Maryjane left last week. The new maid was screaming her ass off when he broke the first bowl. I told her to calm down, lock the back gate and come to the front of the house through the back drain.
I'm not gonna go into much detail la, my mind's all over the place as it is. But let's just say for the day we had absolutely nothing in our kitchen. No bowls, mugs, glasses, food in the fridge, salt, pepper, ALL the damn spices, all the jars of stuff like mayonnaise and pickled god knows what, meat in the freezer, ketcup, chilli sauce, basically everything la.
I'm so bummed. It's like I got bored waiting for the A Levels to start and end. I've lost the drive to study. Sigh.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
you know...
You can be the brightest, the smartest, the cream of the crop (i've always HATED that idiom).
But at some point, you can be so brilliant that you start to border on mental. So no matter how you break your achievements down and file them chronologically, according to magnitude or even try to colour coordinate them, you're still some form of insane.
My head is killing me. I don't know if it's a case of 'studying-too-much'. It's more of a 'worrying-too-much-about-studying-too-little'. It's been throbbing the whole damn day, i'm actually capable of stabbing someone if they irritate me just about enough.
Maryjane has left. We've gone 24 hours without a maid and Ma was all tuckered out from cooking fried rice. What is our family coming to.
Am gonna wake up at 8am tomorrow to do laundry before going to school for a mock math paper.
At night I never wanna sleep... and in the morning I just never wanna wake up. It's a horrible feeling.
But at some point, you can be so brilliant that you start to border on mental. So no matter how you break your achievements down and file them chronologically, according to magnitude or even try to colour coordinate them, you're still some form of insane.
My head is killing me. I don't know if it's a case of 'studying-too-much'. It's more of a 'worrying-too-much-about-studying-too-little'. It's been throbbing the whole damn day, i'm actually capable of stabbing someone if they irritate me just about enough.
Maryjane has left. We've gone 24 hours without a maid and Ma was all tuckered out from cooking fried rice. What is our family coming to.
Am gonna wake up at 8am tomorrow to do laundry before going to school for a mock math paper.
At night I never wanna sleep... and in the morning I just never wanna wake up. It's a horrible feeling.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
another rough weekend
Especially for Aresha. Ash tripped and fell flat on his face - a total accident, but my mother sees it otherwise. She just needs someone to blame, so she can show the world what a fantastic mother she is and how she cares for his well being.
I'm just really trying to detach myself from this nonsense, temporarily.
For the first time in 5 years, my parents are sleeping in the same room again. I think it's miraculous, but I highly doubt the possibly of this arrangement being permanent. It's almost too good to be true. The worst part? If she gets fed up the only available room is mine.
I'm the only one who has a room that isn't really... my room. It's become everyone's junkyard. I don't know when the day will come when I finally have a room I can call MY OWN DAMN ROOM. Where my photos and posters and whatnot don't occupy a miserable half-a-room. After the A's there gonna be some major errr... moving.
Heppenings;
1. Found THE perfect prom dress. Like seriously... perfect. Allow me to be bimbotic for a sec. But my mom has to be a wet blanket and say it's too plunging. It's not... really. I know by my standards what's plunging to you and to me may be quite the contrast but REALLY LA! Believe me! But I will buy it. I have to. It's calling out to me, can't you hear it?
2. Maya's yesterday night! I have seriously been absent for WAY TOO LONG. It did me good to get away from the books and the mad house to just chill and watch Hot Fuzz! Eheh. Loads of dinner laughs and having serious albeit funny conversations about religion. Few more weeks, and many more will ensue. :D
3. Got a shitload of DNB from Aresha just now. I yam a yappy happy girlie. A Sides Eastsides Mix shall be my post-exam mix.
4. Prelim grades: BBDDE. Didn't fail anything, which is fucking fantastic. 2 Bs for Chem and Bio, which is extra fan-fucking-tastic, but a D for Math, extremely depressing. Passed Econs for the first time this year and got a D while I was at it, which I think is the miracle of all miracles. Almost failed GP cause I bombed my essay, got an E, another depressing piece of shite. But overall I think i'm on the right track. As for A Levels! Jia you! Maju err... jaya! Yeah I think that's it.
5. Post A-Level holiday plans are extremely tentative. Priority is Chiangmai with David and the OCIP 2006 crew. But Ma might send to the UK again on a mission (secret ok) and Aresha asked me if i'd like to go to New Zealand for some New Year's Eve drum and bass partay that Amit's spinning at. I wish money grew on trees.
6. Possible post-A level jobs - Relief teaching, zookeeping, newspapering at Aresha's office. Offers anyone?
Yeah so those are the heppenings. Studying's been slow, but I suppose now it's just fine-tuning? Or so I think. And you know, I've come to realise not becoming a vet isn't the end of the world (duh). It'd be hard la, but I just realised there are many things I could do and still be happy.
But it's definitely gotta involve getting out of this country eventually. Staying here will drive me insane.
6 more weeks..... 6 more weeks. I'm barely hanging in there.
I'm just really trying to detach myself from this nonsense, temporarily.
For the first time in 5 years, my parents are sleeping in the same room again. I think it's miraculous, but I highly doubt the possibly of this arrangement being permanent. It's almost too good to be true. The worst part? If she gets fed up the only available room is mine.
I'm the only one who has a room that isn't really... my room. It's become everyone's junkyard. I don't know when the day will come when I finally have a room I can call MY OWN DAMN ROOM. Where my photos and posters and whatnot don't occupy a miserable half-a-room. After the A's there gonna be some major errr... moving.
Heppenings;
1. Found THE perfect prom dress. Like seriously... perfect. Allow me to be bimbotic for a sec. But my mom has to be a wet blanket and say it's too plunging. It's not... really. I know by my standards what's plunging to you and to me may be quite the contrast but REALLY LA! Believe me! But I will buy it. I have to. It's calling out to me, can't you hear it?
2. Maya's yesterday night! I have seriously been absent for WAY TOO LONG. It did me good to get away from the books and the mad house to just chill and watch Hot Fuzz! Eheh. Loads of dinner laughs and having serious albeit funny conversations about religion. Few more weeks, and many more will ensue. :D
3. Got a shitload of DNB from Aresha just now. I yam a yappy happy girlie. A Sides Eastsides Mix shall be my post-exam mix.
4. Prelim grades: BBDDE. Didn't fail anything, which is fucking fantastic. 2 Bs for Chem and Bio, which is extra fan-fucking-tastic, but a D for Math, extremely depressing. Passed Econs for the first time this year and got a D while I was at it, which I think is the miracle of all miracles. Almost failed GP cause I bombed my essay, got an E, another depressing piece of shite. But overall I think i'm on the right track. As for A Levels! Jia you! Maju err... jaya! Yeah I think that's it.
5. Post A-Level holiday plans are extremely tentative. Priority is Chiangmai with David and the OCIP 2006 crew. But Ma might send to the UK again on a mission (secret ok) and Aresha asked me if i'd like to go to New Zealand for some New Year's Eve drum and bass partay that Amit's spinning at. I wish money grew on trees.
6. Possible post-A level jobs - Relief teaching, zookeeping, newspapering at Aresha's office. Offers anyone?
Yeah so those are the heppenings. Studying's been slow, but I suppose now it's just fine-tuning? Or so I think. And you know, I've come to realise not becoming a vet isn't the end of the world (duh). It'd be hard la, but I just realised there are many things I could do and still be happy.
But it's definitely gotta involve getting out of this country eventually. Staying here will drive me insane.
6 more weeks..... 6 more weeks. I'm barely hanging in there.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
wow.
You are pathetic.
That was a seriously pathetic attempt.
As you can see my vocabulary at this point is very limited, but it gets the message across.
I am not enjoying these 4 weeks leading to the As. No not at all.
That was a seriously pathetic attempt.
As you can see my vocabulary at this point is very limited, but it gets the message across.
I am not enjoying these 4 weeks leading to the As. No not at all.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
making a statement
Raushan sent me this link, cause we were talking about this video earlier.
And the lyrics!
Look at my face
and you can guess my race
you wont even see a trace
of anything yellow
I'm an indian guy, in Singapore,
Everytime i step out the door.
I only see yellow
And so i go to school
and everyone thinks they're cool
but they were all yellow
Chorus:
your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
is not, is not as beautiful
you know, you know i need a brown girl
in this yellow world
I tried to date, a girl just like them
Didnt work out in the end
cuz she was too yellow
I even wish i was colourblind
then maybe i wouldnt mind
that she was all yellow
Chorus:
her skin, oh yeah her skin and bones
was not, was not as beautiful
you know, you know i need a brown girl
in this yellow world
Its true, look how i pine for you..
look how i pine for you...
look at the stars, look how they shine for you
and all the things you do..
Hilarious shit. It's great when someone once in awhile decides to stand out and not conform. I think we need more of this in this godforsaken country. Kudos to the man.
And the lyrics!
Look at my face
and you can guess my race
you wont even see a trace
of anything yellow
I'm an indian guy, in Singapore,
Everytime i step out the door.
I only see yellow
And so i go to school
and everyone thinks they're cool
but they were all yellow
Chorus:
your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
is not, is not as beautiful
you know, you know i need a brown girl
in this yellow world
I tried to date, a girl just like them
Didnt work out in the end
cuz she was too yellow
I even wish i was colourblind
then maybe i wouldnt mind
that she was all yellow
Chorus:
her skin, oh yeah her skin and bones
was not, was not as beautiful
you know, you know i need a brown girl
in this yellow world
Its true, look how i pine for you..
look how i pine for you...
look at the stars, look how they shine for you
and all the things you do..
Hilarious shit. It's great when someone once in awhile decides to stand out and not conform. I think we need more of this in this godforsaken country. Kudos to the man.
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