the hill of content

Ahh, things were so much easier a year ago. How things have changed. It's a lovely picture regardless.

When Roti was sleeping just now, I could hear her making dainty noises. Like little sighs. It was adorable. Now she's awake and pooped next to the shelf. This week was supposed to be mega study week, but dear lord how that has failed. The hangover that resulted from last night's ridiculous adventure put me out of commission the entire day today.

I'm not gonna go into the nitty gritty details, but it involved a lot of crazy promises, finding random doors, stealing shit, Bidina falling thru a ceiling and down 2 floors (!!!!), me trying to barter a sparkly purple bow for more packs of spicy sauce, throwing a cucumber thru a window of someone's house... God. It was such effort to get Bidina to the hospital cos she couldn't move her arm much and it hurt. She really didn't want to go and I was being annoying about it.

Had an awesome lunch at Crossways of Malaysian tofu curry and jasmine rice, with PAPPADUM! It was so good. Especially that first bite. The hangover made finishing it a real effort so I didn't.

Fuck. Got nothing done today. Tomorrow is mega finish biochem study day. MUST!

holidays!

Some assignments out of the way, holidays have started, i'm going to Sydney next week.. A jog now would do wonders but my laziness is getting the better of me. And it's cold too. I'd rather have a smoke but i've reached a point where I'm starting to question these decisions.

Smoke vs. A Jog. The former is beginning to disgust me, relative to the latter that is.

One and a half semesters so far and vet has been out of this world. Sometimes, the things you love make you cuss, swear, doubt yourself and tear your hair out. And sometimes, those same things bring you ridiculous amounts of happiness that give you that great bursting feeling in your chest. That's love isn't it? That's what vet's been like to me. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Studying's a drag but that's just a universal sentiment I can never run away from. Despite having to study 24/7 (which is what I.... haven't been doing), it's a small price to pay.

But apart from school, general happiness levels are at an all time high. I'm so happy I don't think about you anymore, effortlessly. No boy drama so far this semester, unlike the past 1.5 years and I hope it stays that way for whatever's left of it. Moved on the bigger and better things, holding myself back in ways I never used to.

Whenever I wanted something, I never waited around.. I just went for it. This was my mistake.. And it always hurt me in the end. But keep in mind the context.. I think in life we should never wait around for things to happen. We are the ones to make it happen. However, when it comes to matters of the heart, i'll start taking precautions now.

We'll see how this situation unravels. I predict a kick in the ass sometime in the future. I don't care if i'm a bitch now, i'm staying guarded.

simple days

I can safely say that now, I am A-Okay.

It's a good feeling I got going on. I'm well and truly happy. Spring is finally here, the weather's warming up and leaves are growing, so that might have something to do with it. But in all seriousness, the emo days are gone for good. I can't believe I let it affect me the way it did, very disappointing.

New developments have.. developed and i'm taking things one step at a time, while still going with the flow. The walls are built high but once I find something truly great, it'll be the stuff of legends.