WHAT THE FACK IS WRONG WITH ME?
I have marks to maintain, yet i'm slacking off like there's no tomorrow. A few months back, the ex gave me some advice. Start in september, you can't go wrong. Follow the way you've been studying all this while, don't change it last minute and ladeeda. Coming from a guy who got 10 points, I can only feel inclined to agree.
I have absolutely no confidence in my prelims whatsoever, then again, the whole first 3 months hoo ha is really getting to me. People still do well regardless of whether they've gone for it or not, but can I really afford not to? I don't understand why teachers were so lazy in giving us even REASONABLY TOUGH mid year papers. Okay so I did real shitty for english, a math and humanities, but that's beside the point.
We don't know where we stand. Among the throngs of other o'level students, we still have no idea. And the teachers just aren't helping. Mr Zaldy was all, 'oh we're gonna set the prelim papers to kill you' to implement some form of anti-confidence regime in bedok view so that we'd force ourselves to try harder.
Why does everyone wanna go to poly? Why are they so deluded by the fact that they MAY make it to uni? So they'd take their prelims for granted and just not bother. Then what about those who wanna go to a JC? They still don't know if they're doing well or not, cause the rest just weren't trying.
Aahhh. Ben did say that we shouldn't worry about the future so much, just go with the flow. I wish it was so easy to forget how easy it is to screw up everything for yourself if you don't consider the results of your actions.
Oh vhatever. I need to finish my a math homework pronto.
Before that, I mustmustmust tell everybody how fun yesterday was. I only started getting ready at 5.20, when maliam told me she was still in her tshirt and shorts and yg had told me he was already dressed and was doing his hair. I skimped on eyeshadow and basically everything else. I decided to curl my hair in the end at the hairdresser's beforehand since I was there to cut my hair. She cut it so short man! So so so much shorter than it was before. But i'm not complaining. She didn't layer it or cut my fringe though. She said it's cause it'd look weird with curls, so I complied.
I loved the curls! Well at least before they became and jumbled up mess. I tried to brush the top to neaten it, and I accidentally brushed out one of the curls! I was getting all panicky trying to curl it back with my finger but it just didn't work. So I.. uncurled the other side a bit and it didn't look so bad. I was wearing the chanel lookalike belt and used ma's guess handbag. I took off the belt in the car cause yg said it might be too much. I also took off the hat in the end. So it was just a tube, jeans, and those velvet flats I borrowed from ma. Plain and simple, and I'm kinda glad I took them off in the end.
The turnout for the concert was disappointing. Even most of the teachers had this heck-care attitude. If you didn't go for speech day, the concert wouldn't have been so boring. But if you did, then you'd see a repitition of performances by malay dance and modern dance. That was also disappointing.
And angklung, where do I start. When did angklung become a percussion band. Not to mention how the guys were kinda OFF sometimes. I LOVE percussion man, don't mutilate it like that. Your focus is angklung, explains the name of the cca in the first place. Surin was annoyed that they were using band instruments. Haha petty boy.
I think it's the result of going for that percussion thing on saturday. Made me more AWARE. Don't get me wrong, i've always loved percussion.
During the interval, I took shitloads of pictures with EVERYONE. Well, almost. Ching Yu was there!! I ambushed him with a gigantic hug. He said I looked healthier back in sec 2. Bledy hell. I did not become skinnier ok.
So yeah, took a picture with him and the rest of the world then went to the toilet with fatimah, who looked AMAZING yesterday. Better remember what she looked like, cause you'll never see fatimah dress up like that again anytime soon. Fi looked gorgeous too, though just a TAD overdressed. At least she wasn't wearing silver jewelry or anything cause that'll just be over the top. She borrowed my shawl for the rest of the night cause she was freezing her buns off. Also to cover what she wore. I didn't need it at all even though I was in a tube, I dunno, must've been cause I was hyper to whole night.
Su and nurul looked vivacious in the blazers! Nurul put on a little too much pink blusher, but she took off a bit later.
The multiracials were dressed to impress. Maya looked like a mafia boss with her hair down. Maya Gotti.
Surin was sporting gryffindor colours, like marr said on her blog. Seriously. But he looked so cute.
So yah. After that we went to miss u cafe while the bahluls went to bedok corner. I chose to go to miss u cafe instead cause it was nearer to my house =D hurhurhur. It was a pretty sentimental goodbye to steph. I kinda understand, just that when I was in her position, I was in sec 3.
The amount of pictures we took was CRAZY. And I saw a completely different side of ben. A really... gay side. Yigang was feeling a little down so I uh... counselled him to the best of my ability. Ben also had some really invaluable advice (though originally from his sisters) for him.
Catwalked out to upper changi road to see them off and had another sentimental goodbye full of hugs and a ten month anniversary peck on the cheek from surin. Heeheehee.
So yep. Nurul said I look better with braces (?). I don't understand. Fatimah said it makes my face look crowded though. I still can't chew... boohoo. SUCK IT UP ARUNA, YOU FECKIN' ASKED FOR IT.
My head looks big. Come on, let me be vain once in a while. This is I think the nicest i've looked all this year. You can't really see the tube I wore. It's all lacy and doesn't stop midrift. Something tells me i'll be wearing it pretty often.
You can't really see the curls either. And my smile is extra fucked up cause my braces make it so uncomfortable. Dr siva said I should feel as if it's part of me in a week. It had better.
3 days to school. Today's almost over. Sigh. I wanna go to university. You get 3 months break. Bah.
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